Well uhm this kind of sucks, I'm not even going to lie but, well I wrote this While I was in the Hospital This week. It really isn't very good at all but.. This is how I'm feeling for everybody who wants to know..
It's about my mom, In case your dumb and can't figure that out..Which would be pretty sad...
Mom, Im watching you as you tucked me into sleep, kissed my forehead and bid me of good dreams.
The touch of your skin as you laid my weary head to rest, soft and warm, a feeling I liked best.
singing me sweet songs, little angels could hear, now they watch in silence, they Know that you aren't here. They stole you, those evil little things, the creatures that slowly watch me, Im soaking in my pain.
They swallowed you and ate out all the good, ripped your heart so violently, I thought they never could.
Mom, I'm looking in the mirror, at the blood that stains my lip, I'm looking at the bruises, that were made by your fingertips.
touch Is cold and bitter, Chills creeping through my bones.
Take me and remove the clothes from my skin, I'm to weak to take care of myself, I cannot win.
Lay my weary head to rest, this time let me sleep, I wan't to wake up to the dead, be buried underneath. The angels slowly whisper quitely amongst themselves, Inside my head I hear, piercing in my skull, I'm nearly dead.
Mom, You say that you love me, once upon a dream, In the past you wanted me, or so it seemed.
Told me I was your world, The best that a son could ever be, But well mom, I think you could never really see.
Your eyes must have been blinded, for I have always been the same, Yet now to this day your opinion has changed?
You say that I can do no good, Im nothing in your eyes, Tell me that you don't hate me, well I see through all your lies.
Dad, Why did she change? What have I done that was so wrong? If I am truly to blame teach me, where did I go, I am not strong.
Im sorry If I have caused this mess, Truly I am. I never thought that I would be the cause.
My mistake for acting out, I was so young. I promise to try harder, If you promise you will love me again, tell me that im the best kid that there has ever been.
I miss the paintings that we drew when I was young, we watched the stars shine bright at night, hell, we tried counting every one.
You were always there for me, except when I needed you most. I never really asked for much, and thats when you gave up on me.
Let me rot alone.
Never even tried to make this coffin feel like home. He was my dad, I loved him too.
You really only think of yourself, Its nothing new.
Mom, If you ever decide to change..I promise I'll forgive you, just stop causing my body so much pain, my heart is melting and youve beaten me with your words, your serpent tongue stinging, Please listen to me for once, Let me be heard
