Suicide Survey

If you wrote a suicide Note:

Would you put anyone's name on it?	Yeah, Most likely
If so, list the names:	Samantha, aidan, Ryan, My mom, Dad, Amanda, kristin, adam, troy, hayden, Isaac, coloton, coby, Gabe. Im sure there's more.
Why would you write it?	So people would undertand.
Would you even write one?	If I was going to kill myself yes?
Would you want it to read at your funeral?	Yes.
Who would you want to find it?	My Mom.
Would you want people to remember it?	Well. yeah?
Would it be a long note, or a short one?	Long.
Name 3 specific things you would mention in it:	My Stepfather, A girl, Why I did it.
Where would you leave it?	My bed.
Would it be written or typed?	Written.
What color ink would you use?	Black.
What kind of paper would you put it on?	Regular Notebook Paper.
How many copies would you leave lying around?	None, there should only be one copy.
If you were going to commit suicide:
Would you go through with it?	Yeah??
Why would you do it?	I cant explain..
How many times would you think about it first?	Alot.
What weapon/ method to die would you choose?	A knife, Classic way.
Why?	It's just how i would.
How many other people would you want to be around?	None, I would do it alone.
Would you plan it out, or just do it?	Specific things would need planned out.
What would your last words be?	Im sorry.
Would you tape record it?	Maybe.
Would you video tape it?	Maybe.
Would you tape yourself up?	No.
If so, how the heel can you kill yourself if you are taped up, dummy?	exactly.
Who would you want to find your body?	My step dad.
After you committed suicide:
Who would actually find your body?	^^^^
In what condition would they find it?	cut open with a knife.
Describe the look on their face:	Hopefully pained.
How long before you were found?	Not long.
How long before they called the police?	No need, my step father is the police.
How long before they told anybody?	The probably wouldnt, not until they had to, to much shame.
Would you be partially decayed already?	Nope.
Would they find the note first, or your body first?	Probably me.
Why would they think you did it?	They would know.
What are the first 3 emotions they would feel?	Guilt, Pain, nervous.
What's the real reason you did it?	.
Do you think they'd figure it out?	YES.
The main reason?
The second reason?
The secret reason?
What are the first 3 people they would tell?	My Brother, My aunt, My Best Friend
At your funeral:
How many people would be there?	Only close friends and family/
What do you want people to remeber about you?	The way I was when my father was alive, When I was happy and strong.
What do you think they'd actually remember?	That I was weak, That I lost myself and surrendered.
Would you want to be buried or cremated?	Cremated
What would you think about right before you died?	How it will affect my close friends, How my brother will be after.
Would others have killed themselves because of you?	I hope not, Im not worth it.
If so, who?	My Brother.
If so, would they have their funerals on the same day?	Yes.
What would it say on your tombstone?	My name.
What would you want it to say?	^^^
Do you think it'd be a good idea to mention that in the note?	Yes.
Well, it's too late. Do you wish you had said something about it earlier?	No.
If you were buried, where would they bury you?	Colorado
If cremated, where would they scatter your ashes?	Colorado
What 3 objects would you want to be put in the coffin with you?	Not a thing.
Did you notice I keep saying 3 of everything?	Yes.
Did you know 3 is an unlucky and very bad number?	Yes.
Do you really care about details like numbers and stuff?	Not Really.
Who would speak at your funeral?	Not sure.
Summarize what they would say:	They wouldnt know what to say, nothing probably.
Keep summarizing:	Cant.
Would you want people to dwell on your death, or move on?	Move on.
Would they remember or forget you?	I wish they would remember but, forget.
WOuld you want them to remember the things you said, or the things you did?	Yes.
What would happen to your memories?                      Not sure